I want you to stay, want you to stay.
Read
this if you're a khunyoung/2pm fan or if you're just feeling real bored. it's pretty good, trust me. It's been a fanfict-with-standard drought for me. Til I read this.
Anyways, I'm feeling extremely sad right now.
Maybe I've been overly dependent on music to keep my feelings in check. There's a reason every time I plug in.
Speaking of which, I'm overly reliant on my piano too. haha. I need new scores or new songs to figure out!
But whatever, that not what you guys want to know anyway. You're more interested in knowing how much more I can screw my life up. Don't lie. It's a pretty good movie if it was gonna be written to be one.
Checked out the zodiac thingy for the 28th of dec (its the 29th alr but it's still written as 28th there) and there's a line saying:
"Your imagination may flare up and cause you bitter delusions; remain firmly planted on earth."
You have no idea.... if only you knew.
Honestly, I'm scared. I'm fucken scared shitless about the upcoming tests. I make it look like I don't really care about it, but you know it means my entire life to me right now.
It's like I've been breathing the air on Earth for the past 18 years, 11 months and 1 day and the the results of the 5 hours plus will determine if I'm going to live past my 19th birthday.
Don't talk to me about erasing my suicidal thoughts. I've entertained them before and they're just like those relatives you see during CNY. They fuck around with you for a couple of hours and then they're gone. So don't worry.
Not like you'd worry anyway. Or that you should. Because even mosquitoes fucking each other have more purpose.
I've got no balls to do it la. haha.
(Anyway, I'll probably die because of homicide (guess who?), not suicide. So there.)
Death by blowing the eardrums out. Sounds scary enough.
wtv goodnight.
The world seems like a nicer place every time I close my eyes.
And I like ADHD kiddo, bipolar freak, kleptomaniac, OCDian, insomniacs and Mr unperfect because they make me happy. You don't.
On a completely unrelated note, Taec saying 我爱你 is fucken hot.
Like there's something different about us (what to do)
Don't want to do it like other people (like that)
Want to put on wings and fly like and flying
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