darkness eyes.
I have tons of people to thank, with some of them being totally unexpected. and some unexpectedly not.
I also have quite a number of people to apologize to, and again, expected and unexpected, in both ways.
whateverwhoeverwhereverwhomeverwheneverhowever = whatwhowherewhomwhenhow x (ever)
my math is good ok.
but anyway i probably wont thank you on my blog, just in case some people aren't too happy to not be in the list. paiseh yos.
but hey, there's 1 whom i really need to thank. (no one can dispute this, because you don't even know how, haaaaa losers. LOL!)
You don't know how much you've taught me, really. You've once brought out the worst in me, given me experience on how eerie my acting can get. eerily real. you've too showed me, what i am capable of doing, to break all my past inhabitations and conservativeness just for it.
you taught me how painful things can be, literally or not. and not.
you've once controlled my highs and lows, so now when the reins are passed on to another, you've taught me how to tear those straps off and keep the sin curve as y=0. except it was more like a tan curve with you. to be infinitely high, then to plummet to the lowest of the low, the nights of all nights.
But you won't know it's you either, because you probably won't even care if i die. even if you do, you'd just be like, yeah i once knew her.
but thanks. you've saved me from myself again, by telling me what to do from what you did to me.
i'm sleepy. bye.
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