May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 October 2011
I know that your first hurt you alot, and now you're really wary of stuff because of that but for someone who asked me why I was doing the same exact thing, keeping my heart in a protective shell 6 months ago, well. Kinda ironic.
"Why you over here hard hard one?"
You don't have to brace yourself for anything, really.
Stop being so prepared for "in case we don't work out".
I'm already giving 110%, or so it seems right now in the wrong direction but I'm trying hard to get it back on your track.
All I'm asking is for you to do the same. This thing goes both ways. Don't start with the end in mind. I know it's just an involuntary subconscious emergency plan B, but still.
For the first person whom I've let in completely, don't block me out, that's all I ask of you. I really do want us to last.
And I'm sorry I'm a possessive bitch. It's not like I want to be like this, I hate it when I'm doing that too. But you have to know that this swings both ways; the more you keep me out, the more insecure I get and get more possessive, and then you keep me out even more. And this just some vicious cycle that doesn't end.
Yes, I am insecure because sometimes, you seem so prepared to let go. So I ask and reconfirm thru all possible means and questions, even though I already know the answers. I just do, I'm sorry. And it's even worse that you're not here. It pisses you off, I know, so I don't, but instead do what I can and even though that's the wrong step I still do try
I guess it's because I've found something that I totally cherish and am very afraid of losing. That would explain the disappearance of the commitment issues. I'm usually not that needy.
I'm not perfect. I do have flaws, why can't you accept it as it is? I'm trying to change, I'm not trying to change you and I never have.
One more thing, I really hate drama. Doesn't seem like it, I know, but if above more than anything, I really really really hate it when such things happen. I really hate it when we quarrel. Wish we never do, nor did. Trust me, definitely not on my to do list.
I just want you to know I'm trying my best and all I want is for you to do the same. Don't tell me it's not what you can give me if I already think it's not enough, it's not that. It is enough, and right as well. All I want, is to be let in, is that alright?
I need hugs, kisses, cuddles through the night whispering sweet nothings, wishing the sun will never rise so morning will never come and we'll never have to leave and go to wherever we are supposed to be.
This horrible week will end eventually but I'll still miss you til you get back
Posted @ 8/25/2011 01:07:00 AM
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Is anything the matter?
If it's because of me, I'm sorry. I don't know what I did to hurt you, but please, tell me.
If it's not because of me, please tell me too. I want nothing more than to know that I am someone you can tell your troubles to, and to help you through with it
The title girlfriend 不是拿来摆美的.
You're not just my boy, you're my best friend too.
So, what's up boy?
Posted @ 8/23/2011 07:35:00 PM
Monday, August 22, 2011
Sad you think that I'll eventually stop caring for all your texts, calls, posts and finally, you.
I haven't, and never will. What about you?
Posted @ 8/22/2011 07:51:00 PM
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
On some days, I'm little miss sunshine.
On others, I just wanna curl up into a ball, and die.
Just like today. Or yesterday, since it's 1am now.
Feelin' kinda sad.
Ok who am I kidding, I'm fucking sad/angsty/wrist. And the worst part is, I don't even know why!
It's not PMS, AUUUGGGHHHHH.
GRRRWWWWAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. I'm gonna tear some shit apart. I feel like I could kill somebody.
HELLO BABY♥ you angsty sleepy little boy who chased his sisters out of his room LAWL
Happy happy HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you, even though you think birthdays are the most overrated thing ever, so much that I had to transfer everything from the near post on your wall to like, right here haha, I'm still like mega excited for you, zomgs 20!
SHO CUTEX I WANNA PINCH YOUR HAMSTER CHEEKS omnomnomnomnom
So sorry your present will be pretty much belated, like next week so there is a last minute present for you! *wink wink* but that will come very very much later LOL and I hope you liked my singing HAHAHA
I need to (re)grasp my command of the english language. The 8 month long holiday inflicted some sirius damage. Siriusly.
I IZ RED HEAD AGAINZ. Because brown is too boring, blonde doesn't fit my skin colour and any other colour is too havoc, according to my momma. Meow there goes pink hair ):
I wanna go platinum blonde! I swear, that colour is like zomgorgasmdies.
Doesn't matter asian or angmoh.
like:
AHHH!!!!!
asdfghjkrurfjgwehealkdhflakshfhakjdlf
Ok I'm reading the list of things to be packed for camp.. and I look into my cupboard.
Sigh. I need more clothes.
Also more htht and th and catchups and for you to be back in sg.
AND I NEED TO BUY A DRESS FOR WEDNESDAY :D
But at the same time, I'm thinking how I'm supposed to sneak home and go to school again.
I suppose I'll survive wearing contacts for 24 hours! If my friend can leave them in for 5 days, 1 day will be no problem WOOTS
Don't think I've ever mentioned this to you before, but once when I was in sec 2, I was sick like this too and refused to crawl out of bed or talk to anyone/reply smses. My mum threw the phone at me and told me to call you.
Yes, my mum won't poison you if you ever come over for dinner. *nods*
Mandu and free flow beer with LW tmr, hope I feel better by then! :D
I suppose it's because everytime I do make an effort to say or do something I don't get the reaction I've expected that I've stopped doing it.
Hate it when you jump topics so quickly. Makes me feel whatever I've said was irrelevant.
Maybe that's how I got the idea that since you never appreciated it you'd come looking for one when you need it.
Guess now I know I thought wrong. =/ Doesn't matter, now I know. ^^
Sad but true, I'm not Miss Independent. I'm clingy, I like slobbery mushy things and I'm extremely possessive. Yeah yeah ew but whatevs.
Who doesn't like surprise notes/posts/emails/gifts/anything? But since even after very very very obvious hints and still no reciprocation I started thinking you didn't want it. It's not that it never happened it's just that over time it got less.. lesser.. then it didn't exist anymore. Started having the feeling that after awhile, you thought that it started to get gross.
But I guess everything's settled now :)
GIMME A REACTION BITCH
Wanted to be the only girl you're ever thinking about but I guess that's not true and probably not possible. Honestly, I don't know how to feel about this. I don't live inside your head, it's whether you want me to, and how much disk space I'm occupy. Sucks to know that your system gave her a higher IPL than me, with her being clock interrupts and I'm probably just the i/o when it's supposed to be the other way round. Stings to know that I've been moved over to secondary storage, but maybe I've always been there. But I suppose it hurts more since you've always been my machine level interrupt.
Don't go changing, to try and please me You never let me down before Don't imagine you're too familiar And I don't see you anymore I wouldn't leave you in times of trouble We never could have come this far I took the good times, I'll take the bad times I'll take you just the way you are
Don't go trying some new fashion Don't change the color of your hair You always have my unspoken passion Although I might not seem to care
I don't want clever conversation I never want to work that hard I just want someone that I can talk to I want you just the way you are.
I need to know that you will always be The same old someone that I knew What will it take till you believe in me The way that I believe in you.
I said I love you and that's forever And this I promise from the heart I could not love you any better I love you just the way you are.
Life is abit sad today because I originally planned to go shopping today but it ended up raining and I hate travelling around when it's raining so shopping plans cancelled ):
And also because of something else la. It's a good thing really, but inconvenient. and gross. and. ARGH.
Tonight with words unspoken You say that i'm the only one Tomorrow ... Tonight you're mine completely You gave your love so sweetly Tonight the light of love is in your eyes But will you love me tomorrow? Is this a lasting treasure? Or just a moment's pleasure? Can i, can i believe the magic of your sigh? Will you still love me tomorrow? Tonight with words unspoken You say that i'm the only one But will my heart be broken, baby, When the night meets the morning sun? I'd like to know that your love Is a love i can be sure of So tell, tell me now, and i won't ask again Will you still love me tomorrow? Tell me now, and i won't ask again Will you still love me? Will you still love me? Will you still love me... tomorrow?
Posted @ 6/27/2011 05:21:00 PM
This is really unrelated to anything, but I wanna name my future son Ian.
:D
Posted @ 6/27/2011 12:29:00 AM
Sunday, June 26, 2011
I want to stop jolting awake feeling empty
That I love you I have loved you all along And I miss you Been far away for far too long I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore
Posted @ 6/26/2011 06:33:00 PM
baby i miss you
Posted @ 6/26/2011 01:23:00 PM
Trust issues?
I trust too quickly, and too much at a time.
Don't make me feel like I made a mistake by fully trusting you.
Posted @ 6/26/2011 12:00:00 AM
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Sometimes I wish I could be reborn and live as if I was in a fairytale. Those bitches in there have shitty conditions but are still smiling with their whiteass teeth.
Maybe sometimes I wish I was stupid. What's the point of knowing and having so much when you can't be happy?
Maybe if I was dumb, marry a dumb guy, have stupid kids as well, have trouble making ends meet with menial, manual jobs.. But what if I was happier that way?
Would it be worth it?
Someone tell me the price tag for happiness. If it costs me an arm and an leg, I'd gladly be a double amputee.
Posted @ 6/25/2011 06:00:00 PM
Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world
Posted @ 6/25/2011 12:54:00 PM
Friday, June 24, 2011
MEH MEH CHI CAO
And here's the blog post you think I'll write!
And you expect: /emorage Y U NO CALL TONIGHT boohoohoo
Nawh nothing of that sort.
ILY ♥♥♥♥♥ :D
On a separate and completely different note, I DREAMT I WAS LYING IN JAY PARK'S CHEST LAST NIGHT. ZOMG. Good dream.
/ps: It's equivalent to you dreaming of grabbing taylor momsen's boobs or something so, not a big deal. LOL.
The amount I drink is directly proportional to how sad I am.
Hope that answers your question.
Posted @ 6/08/2011 05:36:00 PM
Thursday, June 02, 2011
Feeling like some fucking useless retard
Like how I'd so stupidly and excitedly grab the house phone at 11pm because I want to hear your voice so badly but all you do is just accuse me of pushing you away and shit. And before I can even say anything you just go offline. No msgs, no calls, no smses, no nothing. You just fucking disappear with a click.
If you aren't going to do something please tell me beforehand so I won't get excited over something that isn't going to happen. Save me the disappointment please I can't take so much.
I could get used to darling/baby but I hardly think names like ccb/bitch/nub are considered endearing. In fact, they're pretty much plain annoying when you wake up to a spam full of it.
I know I shouldn't be complaining. You're sick and there's nothing I've done/can do to make you feel any better. Instead I'm here bitching about how upset I am just because of some insignificant shit. Sorry for being such a fail gf.
아침이 밝아오면 나 그댈 다시 볼 수 있나요
처음만난 그 순간처럼 그댈 다시 사랑할께요
얼마나 많은 시간이 우리를 지나가고 지나가던
사람들 모두 우릴 축복했죠
어쩐지 오늘은 왠지 그대의 빈자리가 너무도 커 하루종일 눈물만 흘렸죠
미안해요 그대를 아프게해서
미안해요 해준게 너무 없어서
미안해요 하지만 오늘은
꼭 한번 그댈 보고싶어요
Posted @ 6/02/2011 03:24:00 AM
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
2!
To my 小阿飞:
Don't think you've seen this picture before, but this is the 1st ever picture with both our faces in it.
认识你六年了现在才拍照!
ilu xoxo ♥♥♥ 2 down x to go, where x is a constant more than ∞ at any given time.
/edit: walao you spoil surprise one tmd GRRRR next time don't tell you beforehand liao, like xiao di di buy mystery book immediately flip to the back page go see who die liao then read the front part of the story hahaha
Where'd you go? I miss you so. Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone.
One good thing about giving your boyfriend your acc pws is that you don't have to do privacy settings by yourself and risk getting blocked from your own acc.
Maybe the reason why I probably feel shittier than you is because I'm here passing by places where you used to be with me and you're in somewhere I've never filled with my presence
Yeah, it's plain to see That baby you're beautiful and it's nothing wrong with you It's me, I'm a freak, yeah But thanks for lovin' me 'cause you're doing it perfectly
Yeah, there might have been a time When I would let you slip away I wouldn't even try But I think you could save my life
Just don't give up, I am workin' it out Please don't give in, I won't let you down It messed me up, need a second to breathe Just keep coming around
It's not everyday you nearly get stranded in super ulu places (2, to be exact), and 1 of it is near midnight, hitch hike in a complete stranger's car by camping at the carpark gantry and then jumping up and down when a car appears, and after you reach home safely, swallow a large fish bone.
I got out of the 1st one by running after the company bus. HAHAHA.
But if the attention from the cutie on the following day stemmed from that, I'll gladly chiong for the bus everyday >:D
P.S. But seriously, who the heck taught you these? You damn fucking pro can. Don't worry, you're still my favorite player, for now. Just don't get caught too often ^^
I AM OFFICIALLY IN LOVE WITH MIR (sorry chansung, goodbye my lover~)
meow says (11:14 PM): OH RIGHT MIR HAHAHA HE RIGHT HE'S DAMN HYPER FOR REAL ITS NOT JUST ON TV OK SO WE WERE WALKING ABOUT MBS NEAR THE CARPARK THEN SUDDENLY GOT THIS UNCLE STARTED MUMBLING meow says (11:15 PM): 看星星咯 看韩国星星咯 THEN GOT A BUNCH OF GIRLS THERE TOO SO WE WENT TO KPO SEE RIGHT THEN GOT HTIS LAO POK BUS COMEOUT THEN THE GIRLS STARTED SCREAMING THEN SOME OTHER UNCLE WAS LIKE, NONO NOT THIS ONE meow says (11:16 PM): THEN AN MBS BUS CAME OUT THEN EVERYONE WAS LIKE MBLAQQQQQQQQQQQ HAHAHA SO WE CHIONG THEN THUNDER WAS WAVING G.O. GOT OFF HIS SEAT AND OPENED A CURTAIN TO WAVE THEN JOON OPENED HIS CURTAIN ALSO THEN HE WAS WAVING THEN LATER HE PUT HIS HAND ON THE WINDOW THEN SOME GIRL PUT HER HAND ON HIS HAND OMG JEALOUS BUT HE'S DMAN CUTE HIS FACE LKE CHISLED ONE OMG meow says (11:17 PM): THEN HE LIKE LOOK SHY LOOK SHY BUT HE ARM CHIO LOL THEN SO THAT WAS 1 SIDE OF THE BUS SO THERE QUITE ALOT OF PEOPLE SO I GO THE OTHER SIDE THEN RIGHT THERE WAS MIR MY FRIEND STARTD BLOWING KISSES AT HIM THEN HE V CHIC AND STARTED BLOWING THEM BACK THEN COZ I WAS WAVING ALSO THEN HE DID THE SIGN LANG I LOVE YOU IN THE YO YO YO MANNER meow says (11:18 PM): THEN HE KEEP DOING THAT AND JUMPING IN HIS SEAT IN THE BUS HAHAHAHAH OMG SO CUTE THEN APPARENTLY IN THE AIRPORT HE WENT UP TO A BUNCH OF GIRLS AND STARTED GOING I LIKE YOU I LIKE YOU I LIKE YOU I LIKE YOU I LIKE YOU HAHAHAHA THEN IN THE CONCERT RIGHT AT THE END DURING THE PART WHERE ALL THE ARTISTS COME OUT HE meow says (11:19 PM): WAS THERE JUMPING AROUND DOING WEIRD THINGS UNTIL G.O. PULLED HIM THEN HE STOPPED JUMPING LOL OMG SO CUTE HAHAHAHAHA THEN WHEN HE WALKED DOWN THE T STAGE HE WAS LIKE I LIKE YOU I LIKE YOU I LIKE YOU I LIKE YOU I LIKE YOU HAHAHAHA
THAT PRETTY MUCH SUMS OUT MULA.
IT WAS AWESOME, BUT "SOMEBODY" DAMN DAO THEN I V DISAPPOINTED SO LIKE THAT LOR.
NOT TALKING ABOUT CHAN TONIGHT, SORRY ALL YOU CHAN FANS OUT THERE WHO GOT HERE LOOKING FOR HIM.
I'VE GOT A HEADACHE THAT MAGICALLY DISAPPEARED WHILE READING SOME STUFF HAHA
ANYWAY,
A LEVELS IS OVERRRR!!!!!!!!
YIPPEEDOOOOOOO TIME TO DO EVERYTHING I WANNA DO THAT DOESN'T INVOLVE MONEY BECAUSE I HAVEN'T START WORKING YET HAHAHHAA
OK PLEASE LOOK OUT FOR THINGS I MAY BE POSTING OR MAYBE NOT IF I GET TOO LAZY HAAAHAHAHAH
ITS ONLY THE 3RD DAY OF MY HOLS AND I'M DAMN FUCKING BUSY ALR LOL
OK GOODNIGHT AND I LOVE YOU MIR
MIRGASM
ANYWAY, IT'S STRANGE BECAUSE USUALLY WHEN I LIKE SOMEONE IF YOU ASK ME WHAT'S THE 1ST THING I'M GONNA DO WHEN I GET PRIVATE TIME WITH HIM I'D SAY "I WANNA FUCK HIM"
BUT FOR MIR, ALL I WANNA DO IS HUG HIM.
OMG THIS IS WEIRD I THINK I MUST BE GOING CRAZY HAHAHA
OK I BETTER GO SLEEP GOODNIGHT MIR
OH AND IF I'M RIGHT, CHANSUNG WAS WEARING DARK COLOURED BOXERS FOR MULA. MM YES I WAS STARING AT HIS ASS HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
I suck because I didn't buy a cake for her, but I hope she likes the bag :D
Yes, yesterday was a really really bad day. Didn't get to see se7en because of my stupidity and got shitted on by a bird -_-
AT 11PM IN ORCHARD ROAD.
Stupid bird taking a midnight shit. On my head. #$%^&@$
And the super OCD me has to go crazy all over again. Washed my hair with disinfectant soap until it looks and feels like hay now ):
(my hands are peeling too but that happens all the time.. right?)
CURSE YOU BIRD. I HOPE YOU TURN INTO ROASTED BIRD TOMORROW.
Mm ok cheer up time.
Random favorite pic of the day of the favorite boy :D
Chan you're awesome.
Super excited because I'm going to rape see him straight after my A levels.
Speaking of which, I need to start revising for computing paper 2 so that I can be all stressed up by Friday morning and scream my ass off when I molest welcome him at the airport in the afternoon.
(Why are there weird dudes adding me on msn? I'm not an internet whore or anything. Well at least I know those dudes aren't spammers. Mmm gotta change email soon. Please wait for it.)
Ok I should go bathe now. Goodnight my Chansung sleep tight in Macau I'll be there in less than a month and I'll be seeing you in a week :D
I love you I really do. Lie steal and cheat I still love you.
Ok anyway, A levels are ALMOST over!! whoopeedooooo!!!
1 more paper next and then heaven here I come :D
(for the person who came here looking for the translation of okdaeri and hwangbujang its just like, high managerial posts. bujang is deputy head and daeri is erh. High managerial position. haha.)
I have to leave, I have to hurry and leave Affection will turn into tears So that I can’t see the one I left behind I have to hurry a bit more and leave He is crying, the love that I leave The overwhelming sadness is flowing It is so difficult to take a step With his back to me He stands, crying
Don’t ever love Heartbreak will surely come It hurts to even breathe I thought that this would only hurt as much as I loved But I was wrong. It hurts a thousand times more
I’m afraid of living with my eyes open Because I know I won’t see you even if I look for you It seems better to fall asleep exhausted After longing for you
Just once, one more time, can’t we try it? Can’t we? I cry out like an idiot to myself
Don’t ever love It hurts enough to die You will cry every day I told myself that when love comes again that it would be easier and that it would last But I was wrong. Not for my love Not for me
I'm hearing the screams you make, I'm seeing the stars align
Blogging 2 hours and 12 minutes before THE DAY itself.
I'm fucking scared.
So, to destress, I shall plan out my whole dec hols! :D
1 - MUG 2 - MUG 3 - END OF A LEVELS! 4 - Mnet + rape Chansung! *happppy* 5 - something 6 - Shop for prom! 7 - Prom! 8 - hangover hahahhaa 9 - 10 - 11 - bro's birthday + possible mahjong marathon(?) 12 - hangover LOL 13 - 14 - hk 15 - hk 16 - hk 17 - hk 18 - hk(?) 19 - hk(?) 20 - msia(?) 21 - msia(?) 22 - msia(?) 23 - msia(?) 24 - msia(?) 25 - MERRY XMAS! 26 - 27 - 28 - 29 - 30 - 31 - Find someone to go countdown party :D
BOOK ME BOOK ME BOOK ME LETS GET HIGH ON ABSOLUTELY NOTHING AT ALL
I have 5 free days.. let's go out :D
I wanna have a kpop marathon!
5 days...
Dbsk Bigbang 2pm...
Hmm that's 3 days. Ah ok space them out.
COME ON ALL YOU SIAO CHAR BOS BOOK ME BOOK ME FOR THAT HAHAHHA let's spam variety shows until we puke HAHAHA
Either that or let's just get drunk. LOL.
Happy picture of the day
GAHAHHAA. Bet you thought it was another nosebleed inducing pic of chan huh?
nonono *junsu's lip touch and wags finger*
Okok no more teasing.
You know you wanna jump that. And hold his trophy that's in his left hand, except that it's his other "trophy"..
(Anyway I think my bro is really gay. Previously I showed him pictures of SNSD, KARA, etc etc and he was like, ugly la. Then just now I showed him Chansung's men's health pictures and he was like, "EH THAT GUY IS GOOD LOOKING. BETTER THE KOREAN GIRLS. " OMFG.)
Ok erh. hmm. ok whatever. mm Channie.
RIGHT ok no more channie back to geog. LESS THAN 12 HOURS TO BURNING IT :D
AND 25 MORE DAYS TO FREEEDDOOOOOMMMMMMMM~~~~~~~~~
Intense desire Going on between the two of us Like crimson tide Turning things to red With waves of love
My devil's ride I'm so breathless in this ecstasy This sizzling fire Driving me to edge of sanity I got you under my skin
There's no mistakin' You're made for lovin' You do it right, babe LIke no one else can I got you under my skin
Needs a happy picture (Online posts after 2AM never make sense or are R rated.)
Sorry, because I'm feeling like bleaugh so I need a picture that I'll see and smile.
All you lucky bitches get to set your eyes on that sinful pleasuring sight and you know how those abs go when those pants stop hiding 'em gorgeous.. wait no please keep your panties/boxers on tsk all you horny assholes this place is still PG13!
But not for long, really. (Regarding PG13, I mean.) Please wait for after 4th December~!
I love his happy trail, really. Wonder how it'll feel with my tongue on..
OK RIGHT ENOUGH I'M GOING TO BATHE BYEBYE
But honestly Chan would be so good in bondage or BDSM..
The only thing that's keeping me potentially alive is that I'VE GOT THE TICKETS TO SEE MNET ULTIMATE!!!!!!!111111!!!!1111
:D
Now I totally can't wait for the end of A levels :D
What's new.. hmm.
Oh, I'm officially on a diet now! yay *clap clap clap*
Well, I'm allowed to eat just about anything except carbs i.e. rice, potatoes, noodles, bread, cereal and I'm not supposed to eat at night.
Which can only mean 1 thing.
The annoying brother is tempting me into eating food since we both stay up very very late.
"You wanna eeeaaatttttt??? I'M COOKING."
"I cook for you and I'll wash it too!"
"wah taste damn good. munch munch"
*holds food under my nose* "EEAAATTTTTTTT. YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO."
"WAH still got 1 more.. I know you're hungry COME AND EATTTT!"
blooooody cockster.
So, with the power of determination, SAY NO TO FOOD! (late at night, I mean)
And he wondered why I've suddenly got the yi zhi li to not eat, because everyone knows I love food ttm in the middle of the night and well. hmm.
So I was like, "Because Chansung's coming in december and I'm going to see him! and I'm going to potentially glomp him! and I want him to remember me as the chiobu who raped him instead of the fatty who molested him."
And he said:
"Then ok what, he'll know you as the one who jumped on him and landed him into hospital and thus remember you forever."
And he continued:
"You see right, your that Chansung would be thinking,"Walau so many girls jump me all the time and the moment I come to Singapore someone jumps me and I get hospitalized." He'll definitely know you then."
Not exactly what I was expecting.
/PS: just incase any rabid fangirl out there is reading this part about molesting, jumping and raping and getting all angry in your little head, IT'S JUST A FORM OF EXPRESSION, OK?
One of the last things I need right now is having crazy little girls who can't interpret metaphors heating things up in here.
I'm pretty sure manager minjae will kill me before I even get to touch him ):
*sad face*
I've been kinda sad ever since that lazy day led me to not being able to hug jay omg that hot shit
Anyway, I'm feeling kinda sad that I'm not going for the JYJ showcase thingy I mean like HELLO ITS LIKE PARK YOOCHUN LEH
):
So here's a pic spam of him for you.
HAHA so cute.
FUCKING MOTHER HANDSOME CAN OMG HEART BEATS HAHAHAHA
SO BLOODY HANDSOME OMG AHHHHHHH WHY AM I NOT GOING ):
Lucky charlyne is going and CAT A SOMEMORE OMG ):
*jealous*
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. IDONTCARE I AM SO GOING TO THE AIRPORT. HMMMMPH.
What wouldn't I give to glomp/molest/rape that guy................... sigh.
Suddenly on cue my phone's wmp starts playing pleasureman HAHAHA
The guy is fucken singing "I'M YOUR PLEASEUREMAN, UH HUH."
I will not connect the dots for you as of what I'm thinking right now.
(:
On a seperate note, I'm potentially looking for a piano teacher.
If only it was like this..
What wouldn't i give...
Ok I shall do work already enough looking at Park Yoochun's pics because they're very distracting and I'm going crazy int he com lab and this will mean that later I'll be damn high during british council hahahhahahahhahahhahahahhahhahhaa
For my reference: http://sharingyoochun.net/2009/11/27/pic-the-prince-in-prague-part-2/
I know that your first hurt you alot, and now you're really wary of stuff because of that but for someone who asked me why I was doing the same exact thing, keeping my heart in a protective shell 6 months ago, well. Kinda ironic.
"Why you over here hard hard one?"
You don't have to brace yourself for anything, really.
Stop being so prepared for "in case we don't work out".
I'm already giving 110%, or so it seems right now in the wrong direction but I'm trying hard to get it back on your track.
All I'm asking is for you to do the same. This thing goes both ways. Don't start with the end in mind. I know it's just an involuntary subconscious emergency plan B, but still.
For the first person whom I've let in completely, don't block me out, that's all I ask of you. I really do want us to last.
And I'm sorry I'm a possessive bitch. It's not like I want to be like this, I hate it when I'm doing that too. But you have to know that this swings both ways; the more you keep me out, the more insecure I get and get more possessive, and then you keep me out even more. And this just some vicious cycle that doesn't end.
Yes, I am insecure because sometimes, you seem so prepared to let go. So I ask and reconfirm thru all possible means and questions, even though I already know the answers. I just do, I'm sorry. And it's even worse that you're not here. It pisses you off, I know, so I don't, but instead do what I can and even though that's the wrong step I still do try
I guess it's because I've found something that I totally cherish and am very afraid of losing. That would explain the disappearance of the commitment issues. I'm usually not that needy.
I'm not perfect. I do have flaws, why can't you accept it as it is? I'm trying to change, I'm not trying to change you and I never have.
One more thing, I really hate drama. Doesn't seem like it, I know, but if above more than anything, I really really really hate it when such things happen. I really hate it when we quarrel. Wish we never do, nor did. Trust me, definitely not on my to do list.
I just want you to know I'm trying my best and all I want is for you to do the same. Don't tell me it's not what you can give me if I already think it's not enough, it's not that. It is enough, and right as well. All I want, is to be let in, is that alright?
I need hugs, kisses, cuddles through the night whispering sweet nothings, wishing the sun will never rise so morning will never come and we'll never have to leave and go to wherever we are supposed to be.
This horrible week will end eventually but I'll still miss you til you get back
Posted @ 8/25/2011 01:07:00 AM
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Is anything the matter?
If it's because of me, I'm sorry. I don't know what I did to hurt you, but please, tell me.
If it's not because of me, please tell me too. I want nothing more than to know that I am someone you can tell your troubles to, and to help you through with it
The title girlfriend 不是拿来摆美的.
You're not just my boy, you're my best friend too.
So, what's up boy?
Posted @ 8/23/2011 07:35:00 PM
Monday, August 22, 2011
Sad you think that I'll eventually stop caring for all your texts, calls, posts and finally, you.
I haven't, and never will. What about you?
Posted @ 8/22/2011 07:51:00 PM
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
On some days, I'm little miss sunshine.
On others, I just wanna curl up into a ball, and die.
Just like today. Or yesterday, since it's 1am now.
Feelin' kinda sad.
Ok who am I kidding, I'm fucking sad/angsty/wrist. And the worst part is, I don't even know why!
It's not PMS, AUUUGGGHHHHH.
GRRRWWWWAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. I'm gonna tear some shit apart. I feel like I could kill somebody.
HELLO BABY♥ you angsty sleepy little boy who chased his sisters out of his room LAWL
Happy happy HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you, even though you think birthdays are the most overrated thing ever, so much that I had to transfer everything from the near post on your wall to like, right here haha, I'm still like mega excited for you, zomgs 20!
SHO CUTEX I WANNA PINCH YOUR HAMSTER CHEEKS omnomnomnomnom
So sorry your present will be pretty much belated, like next week so there is a last minute present for you! *wink wink* but that will come very very much later LOL and I hope you liked my singing HAHAHA
I need to (re)grasp my command of the english language. The 8 month long holiday inflicted some sirius damage. Siriusly.
I IZ RED HEAD AGAINZ. Because brown is too boring, blonde doesn't fit my skin colour and any other colour is too havoc, according to my momma. Meow there goes pink hair ):
I wanna go platinum blonde! I swear, that colour is like zomgorgasmdies.
Doesn't matter asian or angmoh.
like:
AHHH!!!!!
asdfghjkrurfjgwehealkdhflakshfhakjdlf
Ok I'm reading the list of things to be packed for camp.. and I look into my cupboard.
Sigh. I need more clothes.
Also more htht and th and catchups and for you to be back in sg.
AND I NEED TO BUY A DRESS FOR WEDNESDAY :D
But at the same time, I'm thinking how I'm supposed to sneak home and go to school again.
I suppose I'll survive wearing contacts for 24 hours! If my friend can leave them in for 5 days, 1 day will be no problem WOOTS
Don't think I've ever mentioned this to you before, but once when I was in sec 2, I was sick like this too and refused to crawl out of bed or talk to anyone/reply smses. My mum threw the phone at me and told me to call you.
Yes, my mum won't poison you if you ever come over for dinner. *nods*
Mandu and free flow beer with LW tmr, hope I feel better by then! :D
I suppose it's because everytime I do make an effort to say or do something I don't get the reaction I've expected that I've stopped doing it.
Hate it when you jump topics so quickly. Makes me feel whatever I've said was irrelevant.
Maybe that's how I got the idea that since you never appreciated it you'd come looking for one when you need it.
Guess now I know I thought wrong. =/ Doesn't matter, now I know. ^^
Sad but true, I'm not Miss Independent. I'm clingy, I like slobbery mushy things and I'm extremely possessive. Yeah yeah ew but whatevs.
Who doesn't like surprise notes/posts/emails/gifts/anything? But since even after very very very obvious hints and still no reciprocation I started thinking you didn't want it. It's not that it never happened it's just that over time it got less.. lesser.. then it didn't exist anymore. Started having the feeling that after awhile, you thought that it started to get gross.
But I guess everything's settled now :)
GIMME A REACTION BITCH
Wanted to be the only girl you're ever thinking about but I guess that's not true and probably not possible. Honestly, I don't know how to feel about this. I don't live inside your head, it's whether you want me to, and how much disk space I'm occupy. Sucks to know that your system gave her a higher IPL than me, with her being clock interrupts and I'm probably just the i/o when it's supposed to be the other way round. Stings to know that I've been moved over to secondary storage, but maybe I've always been there. But I suppose it hurts more since you've always been my machine level interrupt.
Don't go changing, to try and please me You never let me down before Don't imagine you're too familiar And I don't see you anymore I wouldn't leave you in times of trouble We never could have come this far I took the good times, I'll take the bad times I'll take you just the way you are
Don't go trying some new fashion Don't change the color of your hair You always have my unspoken passion Although I might not seem to care
I don't want clever conversation I never want to work that hard I just want someone that I can talk to I want you just the way you are.
I need to know that you will always be The same old someone that I knew What will it take till you believe in me The way that I believe in you.
I said I love you and that's forever And this I promise from the heart I could not love you any better I love you just the way you are.
Life is abit sad today because I originally planned to go shopping today but it ended up raining and I hate travelling around when it's raining so shopping plans cancelled ):
And also because of something else la. It's a good thing really, but inconvenient. and gross. and. ARGH.
Tonight with words unspoken You say that i'm the only one Tomorrow ... Tonight you're mine completely You gave your love so sweetly Tonight the light of love is in your eyes But will you love me tomorrow? Is this a lasting treasure? Or just a moment's pleasure? Can i, can i believe the magic of your sigh? Will you still love me tomorrow? Tonight with words unspoken You say that i'm the only one But will my heart be broken, baby, When the night meets the morning sun? I'd like to know that your love Is a love i can be sure of So tell, tell me now, and i won't ask again Will you still love me tomorrow? Tell me now, and i won't ask again Will you still love me? Will you still love me? Will you still love me... tomorrow?
Posted @ 6/27/2011 05:21:00 PM
This is really unrelated to anything, but I wanna name my future son Ian.
:D
Posted @ 6/27/2011 12:29:00 AM
Sunday, June 26, 2011
I want to stop jolting awake feeling empty
That I love you I have loved you all along And I miss you Been far away for far too long I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore
Posted @ 6/26/2011 06:33:00 PM
baby i miss you
Posted @ 6/26/2011 01:23:00 PM
Trust issues?
I trust too quickly, and too much at a time.
Don't make me feel like I made a mistake by fully trusting you.
Posted @ 6/26/2011 12:00:00 AM
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Sometimes I wish I could be reborn and live as if I was in a fairytale. Those bitches in there have shitty conditions but are still smiling with their whiteass teeth.
Maybe sometimes I wish I was stupid. What's the point of knowing and having so much when you can't be happy?
Maybe if I was dumb, marry a dumb guy, have stupid kids as well, have trouble making ends meet with menial, manual jobs.. But what if I was happier that way?
Would it be worth it?
Someone tell me the price tag for happiness. If it costs me an arm and an leg, I'd gladly be a double amputee.
Posted @ 6/25/2011 06:00:00 PM
Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world
Posted @ 6/25/2011 12:54:00 PM
Friday, June 24, 2011
MEH MEH CHI CAO
And here's the blog post you think I'll write!
And you expect: /emorage Y U NO CALL TONIGHT boohoohoo
Nawh nothing of that sort.
ILY ♥♥♥♥♥ :D
On a separate and completely different note, I DREAMT I WAS LYING IN JAY PARK'S CHEST LAST NIGHT. ZOMG. Good dream.
/ps: It's equivalent to you dreaming of grabbing taylor momsen's boobs or something so, not a big deal. LOL.
The amount I drink is directly proportional to how sad I am.
Hope that answers your question.
Posted @ 6/08/2011 05:36:00 PM
Thursday, June 02, 2011
Feeling like some fucking useless retard
Like how I'd so stupidly and excitedly grab the house phone at 11pm because I want to hear your voice so badly but all you do is just accuse me of pushing you away and shit. And before I can even say anything you just go offline. No msgs, no calls, no smses, no nothing. You just fucking disappear with a click.
If you aren't going to do something please tell me beforehand so I won't get excited over something that isn't going to happen. Save me the disappointment please I can't take so much.
I could get used to darling/baby but I hardly think names like ccb/bitch/nub are considered endearing. In fact, they're pretty much plain annoying when you wake up to a spam full of it.
I know I shouldn't be complaining. You're sick and there's nothing I've done/can do to make you feel any better. Instead I'm here bitching about how upset I am just because of some insignificant shit. Sorry for being such a fail gf.
아침이 밝아오면 나 그댈 다시 볼 수 있나요
처음만난 그 순간처럼 그댈 다시 사랑할께요
얼마나 많은 시간이 우리를 지나가고 지나가던
사람들 모두 우릴 축복했죠
어쩐지 오늘은 왠지 그대의 빈자리가 너무도 커 하루종일 눈물만 흘렸죠
미안해요 그대를 아프게해서
미안해요 해준게 너무 없어서
미안해요 하지만 오늘은
꼭 한번 그댈 보고싶어요
Posted @ 6/02/2011 03:24:00 AM
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
2!
To my 小阿飞:
Don't think you've seen this picture before, but this is the 1st ever picture with both our faces in it.
认识你六年了现在才拍照!
ilu xoxo ♥♥♥ 2 down x to go, where x is a constant more than ∞ at any given time.
/edit: walao you spoil surprise one tmd GRRRR next time don't tell you beforehand liao, like xiao di di buy mystery book immediately flip to the back page go see who die liao then read the front part of the story hahaha
Where'd you go? I miss you so. Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone.
One good thing about giving your boyfriend your acc pws is that you don't have to do privacy settings by yourself and risk getting blocked from your own acc.
Maybe the reason why I probably feel shittier than you is because I'm here passing by places where you used to be with me and you're in somewhere I've never filled with my presence
Yeah, it's plain to see That baby you're beautiful and it's nothing wrong with you It's me, I'm a freak, yeah But thanks for lovin' me 'cause you're doing it perfectly
Yeah, there might have been a time When I would let you slip away I wouldn't even try But I think you could save my life
Just don't give up, I am workin' it out Please don't give in, I won't let you down It messed me up, need a second to breathe Just keep coming around
It's not everyday you nearly get stranded in super ulu places (2, to be exact), and 1 of it is near midnight, hitch hike in a complete stranger's car by camping at the carpark gantry and then jumping up and down when a car appears, and after you reach home safely, swallow a large fish bone.
I got out of the 1st one by running after the company bus. HAHAHA.
But if the attention from the cutie on the following day stemmed from that, I'll gladly chiong for the bus everyday >:D
P.S. But seriously, who the heck taught you these? You damn fucking pro can. Don't worry, you're still my favorite player, for now. Just don't get caught too often ^^
I AM OFFICIALLY IN LOVE WITH MIR (sorry chansung, goodbye my lover~)
meow says (11:14 PM): OH RIGHT MIR HAHAHA HE RIGHT HE'S DAMN HYPER FOR REAL ITS NOT JUST ON TV OK SO WE WERE WALKING ABOUT MBS NEAR THE CARPARK THEN SUDDENLY GOT THIS UNCLE STARTED MUMBLING meow says (11:15 PM): 看星星咯 看韩国星星咯 THEN GOT A BUNCH OF GIRLS THERE TOO SO WE WENT TO KPO SEE RIGHT THEN GOT HTIS LAO POK BUS COMEOUT THEN THE GIRLS STARTED SCREAMING THEN SOME OTHER UNCLE WAS LIKE, NONO NOT THIS ONE meow says (11:16 PM): THEN AN MBS BUS CAME OUT THEN EVERYONE WAS LIKE MBLAQQQQQQQQQQQ HAHAHA SO WE CHIONG THEN THUNDER WAS WAVING G.O. GOT OFF HIS SEAT AND OPENED A CURTAIN TO WAVE THEN JOON OPENED HIS CURTAIN ALSO THEN HE WAS WAVING THEN LATER HE PUT HIS HAND ON THE WINDOW THEN SOME GIRL PUT HER HAND ON HIS HAND OMG JEALOUS BUT HE'S DMAN CUTE HIS FACE LKE CHISLED ONE OMG meow says (11:17 PM): THEN HE LIKE LOOK SHY LOOK SHY BUT HE ARM CHIO LOL THEN SO THAT WAS 1 SIDE OF THE BUS SO THERE QUITE ALOT OF PEOPLE SO I GO THE OTHER SIDE THEN RIGHT THERE WAS MIR MY FRIEND STARTD BLOWING KISSES AT HIM THEN HE V CHIC AND STARTED BLOWING THEM BACK THEN COZ I WAS WAVING ALSO THEN HE DID THE SIGN LANG I LOVE YOU IN THE YO YO YO MANNER meow says (11:18 PM): THEN HE KEEP DOING THAT AND JUMPING IN HIS SEAT IN THE BUS HAHAHAHAH OMG SO CUTE THEN APPARENTLY IN THE AIRPORT HE WENT UP TO A BUNCH OF GIRLS AND STARTED GOING I LIKE YOU I LIKE YOU I LIKE YOU I LIKE YOU I LIKE YOU HAHAHAHA THEN IN THE CONCERT RIGHT AT THE END DURING THE PART WHERE ALL THE ARTISTS COME OUT HE meow says (11:19 PM): WAS THERE JUMPING AROUND DOING WEIRD THINGS UNTIL G.O. PULLED HIM THEN HE STOPPED JUMPING LOL OMG SO CUTE HAHAHAHAHA THEN WHEN HE WALKED DOWN THE T STAGE HE WAS LIKE I LIKE YOU I LIKE YOU I LIKE YOU I LIKE YOU I LIKE YOU HAHAHAHA
THAT PRETTY MUCH SUMS OUT MULA.
IT WAS AWESOME, BUT "SOMEBODY" DAMN DAO THEN I V DISAPPOINTED SO LIKE THAT LOR.
NOT TALKING ABOUT CHAN TONIGHT, SORRY ALL YOU CHAN FANS OUT THERE WHO GOT HERE LOOKING FOR HIM.
I'VE GOT A HEADACHE THAT MAGICALLY DISAPPEARED WHILE READING SOME STUFF HAHA
ANYWAY,
A LEVELS IS OVERRRR!!!!!!!!
YIPPEEDOOOOOOO TIME TO DO EVERYTHING I WANNA DO THAT DOESN'T INVOLVE MONEY BECAUSE I HAVEN'T START WORKING YET HAHAHHAA
OK PLEASE LOOK OUT FOR THINGS I MAY BE POSTING OR MAYBE NOT IF I GET TOO LAZY HAAAHAHAHAH
ITS ONLY THE 3RD DAY OF MY HOLS AND I'M DAMN FUCKING BUSY ALR LOL
OK GOODNIGHT AND I LOVE YOU MIR
MIRGASM
ANYWAY, IT'S STRANGE BECAUSE USUALLY WHEN I LIKE SOMEONE IF YOU ASK ME WHAT'S THE 1ST THING I'M GONNA DO WHEN I GET PRIVATE TIME WITH HIM I'D SAY "I WANNA FUCK HIM"
BUT FOR MIR, ALL I WANNA DO IS HUG HIM.
OMG THIS IS WEIRD I THINK I MUST BE GOING CRAZY HAHAHA
OK I BETTER GO SLEEP GOODNIGHT MIR
OH AND IF I'M RIGHT, CHANSUNG WAS WEARING DARK COLOURED BOXERS FOR MULA. MM YES I WAS STARING AT HIS ASS HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
I suck because I didn't buy a cake for her, but I hope she likes the bag :D
Yes, yesterday was a really really bad day. Didn't get to see se7en because of my stupidity and got shitted on by a bird -_-
AT 11PM IN ORCHARD ROAD.
Stupid bird taking a midnight shit. On my head. #$%^&@$
And the super OCD me has to go crazy all over again. Washed my hair with disinfectant soap until it looks and feels like hay now ):
(my hands are peeling too but that happens all the time.. right?)
CURSE YOU BIRD. I HOPE YOU TURN INTO ROASTED BIRD TOMORROW.
Mm ok cheer up time.
Random favorite pic of the day of the favorite boy :D
Chan you're awesome.
Super excited because I'm going to rape see him straight after my A levels.
Speaking of which, I need to start revising for computing paper 2 so that I can be all stressed up by Friday morning and scream my ass off when I molest welcome him at the airport in the afternoon.
(Why are there weird dudes adding me on msn? I'm not an internet whore or anything. Well at least I know those dudes aren't spammers. Mmm gotta change email soon. Please wait for it.)
Ok I should go bathe now. Goodnight my Chansung sleep tight in Macau I'll be there in less than a month and I'll be seeing you in a week :D
I love you I really do. Lie steal and cheat I still love you.
Ok anyway, A levels are ALMOST over!! whoopeedooooo!!!
1 more paper next and then heaven here I come :D
(for the person who came here looking for the translation of okdaeri and hwangbujang its just like, high managerial posts. bujang is deputy head and daeri is erh. High managerial position. haha.)
I have to leave, I have to hurry and leave Affection will turn into tears So that I can’t see the one I left behind I have to hurry a bit more and leave He is crying, the love that I leave The overwhelming sadness is flowing It is so difficult to take a step With his back to me He stands, crying
Don’t ever love Heartbreak will surely come It hurts to even breathe I thought that this would only hurt as much as I loved But I was wrong. It hurts a thousand times more
I’m afraid of living with my eyes open Because I know I won’t see you even if I look for you It seems better to fall asleep exhausted After longing for you
Just once, one more time, can’t we try it? Can’t we? I cry out like an idiot to myself
Don’t ever love It hurts enough to die You will cry every day I told myself that when love comes again that it would be easier and that it would last But I was wrong. Not for my love Not for me
I'm hearing the screams you make, I'm seeing the stars align
Blogging 2 hours and 12 minutes before THE DAY itself.
I'm fucking scared.
So, to destress, I shall plan out my whole dec hols! :D
1 - MUG 2 - MUG 3 - END OF A LEVELS! 4 - Mnet + rape Chansung! *happppy* 5 - something 6 - Shop for prom! 7 - Prom! 8 - hangover hahahhaa 9 - 10 - 11 - bro's birthday + possible mahjong marathon(?) 12 - hangover LOL 13 - 14 - hk 15 - hk 16 - hk 17 - hk 18 - hk(?) 19 - hk(?) 20 - msia(?) 21 - msia(?) 22 - msia(?) 23 - msia(?) 24 - msia(?) 25 - MERRY XMAS! 26 - 27 - 28 - 29 - 30 - 31 - Find someone to go countdown party :D
BOOK ME BOOK ME BOOK ME LETS GET HIGH ON ABSOLUTELY NOTHING AT ALL
I have 5 free days.. let's go out :D
I wanna have a kpop marathon!
5 days...
Dbsk Bigbang 2pm...
Hmm that's 3 days. Ah ok space them out.
COME ON ALL YOU SIAO CHAR BOS BOOK ME BOOK ME FOR THAT HAHAHHA let's spam variety shows until we puke HAHAHA
Either that or let's just get drunk. LOL.
Happy picture of the day
GAHAHHAA. Bet you thought it was another nosebleed inducing pic of chan huh?
nonono *junsu's lip touch and wags finger*
Okok no more teasing.
You know you wanna jump that. And hold his trophy that's in his left hand, except that it's his other "trophy"..
(Anyway I think my bro is really gay. Previously I showed him pictures of SNSD, KARA, etc etc and he was like, ugly la. Then just now I showed him Chansung's men's health pictures and he was like, "EH THAT GUY IS GOOD LOOKING. BETTER THE KOREAN GIRLS. " OMFG.)
Ok erh. hmm. ok whatever. mm Channie.
RIGHT ok no more channie back to geog. LESS THAN 12 HOURS TO BURNING IT :D
AND 25 MORE DAYS TO FREEEDDOOOOOMMMMMMMM~~~~~~~~~
Intense desire Going on between the two of us Like crimson tide Turning things to red With waves of love
My devil's ride I'm so breathless in this ecstasy This sizzling fire Driving me to edge of sanity I got you under my skin
There's no mistakin' You're made for lovin' You do it right, babe LIke no one else can I got you under my skin
Needs a happy picture (Online posts after 2AM never make sense or are R rated.)
Sorry, because I'm feeling like bleaugh so I need a picture that I'll see and smile.
All you lucky bitches get to set your eyes on that sinful pleasuring sight and you know how those abs go when those pants stop hiding 'em gorgeous.. wait no please keep your panties/boxers on tsk all you horny assholes this place is still PG13!
But not for long, really. (Regarding PG13, I mean.) Please wait for after 4th December~!
I love his happy trail, really. Wonder how it'll feel with my tongue on..
OK RIGHT ENOUGH I'M GOING TO BATHE BYEBYE
But honestly Chan would be so good in bondage or BDSM..
The only thing that's keeping me potentially alive is that I'VE GOT THE TICKETS TO SEE MNET ULTIMATE!!!!!!!111111!!!!1111
:D
Now I totally can't wait for the end of A levels :D
What's new.. hmm.
Oh, I'm officially on a diet now! yay *clap clap clap*
Well, I'm allowed to eat just about anything except carbs i.e. rice, potatoes, noodles, bread, cereal and I'm not supposed to eat at night.
Which can only mean 1 thing.
The annoying brother is tempting me into eating food since we both stay up very very late.
"You wanna eeeaaatttttt??? I'M COOKING."
"I cook for you and I'll wash it too!"
"wah taste damn good. munch munch"
*holds food under my nose* "EEAAATTTTTTTT. YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO."
"WAH still got 1 more.. I know you're hungry COME AND EATTTT!"
blooooody cockster.
So, with the power of determination, SAY NO TO FOOD! (late at night, I mean)
And he wondered why I've suddenly got the yi zhi li to not eat, because everyone knows I love food ttm in the middle of the night and well. hmm.
So I was like, "Because Chansung's coming in december and I'm going to see him! and I'm going to potentially glomp him! and I want him to remember me as the chiobu who raped him instead of the fatty who molested him."
And he said:
"Then ok what, he'll know you as the one who jumped on him and landed him into hospital and thus remember you forever."
And he continued:
"You see right, your that Chansung would be thinking,"Walau so many girls jump me all the time and the moment I come to Singapore someone jumps me and I get hospitalized." He'll definitely know you then."
Not exactly what I was expecting.
/PS: just incase any rabid fangirl out there is reading this part about molesting, jumping and raping and getting all angry in your little head, IT'S JUST A FORM OF EXPRESSION, OK?
One of the last things I need right now is having crazy little girls who can't interpret metaphors heating things up in here.
I'm pretty sure manager minjae will kill me before I even get to touch him ):
*sad face*
I've been kinda sad ever since that lazy day led me to not being able to hug jay omg that hot shit
Anyway, I'm feeling kinda sad that I'm not going for the JYJ showcase thingy I mean like HELLO ITS LIKE PARK YOOCHUN LEH
):
So here's a pic spam of him for you.
HAHA so cute.
FUCKING MOTHER HANDSOME CAN OMG HEART BEATS HAHAHAHA
SO BLOODY HANDSOME OMG AHHHHHHH WHY AM I NOT GOING ):
Lucky charlyne is going and CAT A SOMEMORE OMG ):
*jealous*
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. IDONTCARE I AM SO GOING TO THE AIRPORT. HMMMMPH.
What wouldn't I give to glomp/molest/rape that guy................... sigh.
Suddenly on cue my phone's wmp starts playing pleasureman HAHAHA
The guy is fucken singing "I'M YOUR PLEASEUREMAN, UH HUH."
I will not connect the dots for you as of what I'm thinking right now.
(:
On a seperate note, I'm potentially looking for a piano teacher.
If only it was like this..
What wouldn't i give...
Ok I shall do work already enough looking at Park Yoochun's pics because they're very distracting and I'm going crazy int he com lab and this will mean that later I'll be damn high during british council hahahhahahahhahahhahahahhahhahhaa
For my reference: http://sharingyoochun.net/2009/11/27/pic-the-prince-in-prague-part-2/